scream when you have to, to let go

whee.im home nows.okayy. anyways.

we wrote a letter for xl! yay!how nice of us.[ahem.more like how nice of her to write to us?!?!]hee.yupp yupp.

uhm.

whoops.i will only continue writing once my brother leave me alone.toot.s

uhhuhh uhhuhh.

anyways.lesson was ok.

pon-ned english last period with joanne.

pls lorhs.who can like stand him talk rot down there.

~~complete waste of periods.~~

so what's like the point of staying.

yucKs.

i almost bumped into him when i went baq up to find farah.and i ran into the teacher's toilet.

hah.

chanwaimeng was ard there too so i pretended to drink water.

-sticks out tongue.how irritating can she be.

she got some grudge against us can?

boo.

ate pau-s for lunch how pathetiq pls.ahh.

so i was totally sad today.

happened during when erhh.i was going baq up to class.

the sadness is like soooo immense.

like one big bigg rock drop on me.

-sobs.

hah.joanne has got sixth sense! =)

salute her for that.hah.not bad huh?

and i feel proud of myself.

i did work during lit[free],amaths[free]!yays.

how funn.thankew.

**talk to me even it's just to say goodbye**

yoohoo.

okayyye.

in the com lab now.heh.

like how many thousand years neh come here pls.~~i miss it~~

anyways.

shall i recap a bit down here?

okayye.will do.

SATURDAY 24 july 2004

one year liaos.since we had our syf.

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!

we got gold ahh pls.

was so happy.remember that time i was always scolded by FIONA.

hah. so insensitive.but she did it for the best.

heh.

it was also our speech day.

waddehell. go and die ahh.

but miracle happened we played the school song better than we/i did before.

hah.

mrs chua birthdayye,

we sang birthdya song for her in the hall.whee.

so...urps. but we sang again yesterday with mr and mrs solvania or sumting.

seriously sorry.i forgot your names. boo.

yupp. yupp.

den we rush rush to RELC.

wow.

the place quite nice lorhs.

not soo "run-down"

ohwells.

den.we practised.what the shit.

i was like struggling.

yupp.

went up to my place.ms low send us there.

hahah.big jokeee.

den we play play play.

cook maggi mee.hah.

liyana=bigg bigg pwincess.

we cook for her, wash her bowl for her.

toot.s

i salute liyana for that pls.

denw e went ba down to relc.

heee.

made frensss.

hahah. cute guys!!heh.

but pls.i'm not falling for guys.

thankew.

the emcee's voice is like struggling to be sexayye.

hahah.

and he wears BRACES!!:)

whee.

den that bendemeer guy so mean go and make fun of me.

hmpft.

den our performance came.

heh.

i almost tripped on the wire.

so i said sorry.

whatever la.

we performed!i got a few mistakes but i did have funn!!

yays.

and i banged into liyana. and my specs broke.

so mummy made me a replacement.

180 bucks.

daddy paid.

yupp. now have to leave the room.

see you soon!

anyways.amira just showed me sthg.

sooo cute..but toot.

okayy.the blogger on this thing is like how s l o w pls.

carn carn carn.stand it.

anyways.was totally put off today.

COMPLETELY.

ahh.by like everything.

early morn had stomachache.pls.dorcas i was just squatting you dun need to come and scare me from the back right?

hah.okayy.

anyways.i din go or malay lessin at all.

why?

midi.

hah.okayy.quite a reasonable reason.

fine.and pls!

i got 35/45 for my malay test!

woohoo!so funn!

i love.i love.

i want to do it again and again.

heh.den i can master malay!

yays.den quite happy the rest of the day le.

whatever.[to someone]

anyways,she may not even realise that it's for her.

whatever.i dun even know why?

guh.

anyways.i want to offer my bigg bigg thanks to daphne leong qian qian.

you ar elike how nice pls.

thankew arhh.

okayy.den went out wif dianah.

whee.

i saw toys.at taka.

cheap.cheap.

i want.i like.buy for me.

heh.fine.i got no muhney anyway so why dream.

mummy and daddy brought us out.

yays.to causeway pt.

so funn.

i was like admiring those gowns.

telling my mummy i want.

den reminded her of the deal.

heh.

she sudd say.

who want to buy for you a 100 bucks piece of clothing?

my mummy so mean.

ahh.whatever.

but she still loves me and i love her!

heh.

but i love god the most.

god will stay with me forever.

god,i love you.

not anyone else.

let go hors?

i dunno.

it's wrong by religion anyways.

i dun wanna sin.

heh.

~~like real.~~

mummy gave me pep talk on thursday.

she say all things that makes me think.

hah.

i love my mummy.

i will change kayy!

i promise.

that's why.

if you can't have it, why dream.

if you can't love it, why force yourself to the extend?

if you can't dream it, change for what you can.

dreams are endless.

nothing in this world are forever.

what's left for you and me are your deeds and the person you are.

so love god the way you love yourself.

cause at the end of it.

it's only you and god.

[lesson: if i know i can't do it, don't even think of it.i will only ruin myself.]

i will let you go someday.

ohhh okayyy.

i just came baq frem ICE-skating!!

uhh. i was ike damnnnnnn FUNNN.

anyways.

i could skate!!

for the first time skating on the rink.

wowowow.

im so proud.

heh.

ahh.

shall i recap?

okayy see how much time i've got!

okayy.

the other day i DISSECTED a sheep's heart.

like very fun.

soem kind of masterpiece.

damn nice ahh.

no wonder i wanted to be doctor.

i seriously think that human body is soooo much more easier to understand as compared to the leaf.

ahh. whatever la.

den. bought my preettty mummy a card.how sad right?

just a card.

den went ps to get ber's bdae prezzie.

yupp yupp.

wanted to buy another one.

but apperently.

i have like..must "coperate" with 8 oters.

yupp yupp.

............

anyways.

i totlly can't stand dis NEW leader in scool.

oh-just-go-to-hell.

i dun understand you lorhs.

ahh.

who's in charge.

toot.

den.

yupp yupp.

band fiesta at botanic.

ahh.

what a terrible performance.

i think it was the worst amongst the 5!

okayy.

gotta go now.

hafta leave childcare centre soon for tuition.

anyways.

happy birthday idiot.

i created a quiz.
hah. for fun. i think i took 1/2 hr to do it.
now i need to shit. bleah. how.
nehmind. i shall tahan.
let it stone in my large intestine and anus.
hah.okayy.
had maths test yesterday. okayy ahh.
not bad.
quite easy.
den had a maths and chem today.
totally gonna flunk chem.
didn't what rubbish i wrote on the paper man.
just tikam tikam.
tdy must do RSVP compo.
go and die ahh.
he himself say no nid do.
den i neh do.
chokes faints and dies.
i slept at 10 yesterday.soo tired man.
PLANNED to wake up at 3.30 to study a maths and chem and do compo.
~~OBVIOUSLY i neh wake up ahh.~~
hah. band was so shitified yesterday.
i can't play properly.
den damn sad liaos.
ohmans.my bro is singing ever so loudly in the hall.
somewhere i belong.
soo..yesterday.
tmr oral. must speak proper english.
going out fer dinner tonight.
so now i shall do my compo.
ehh. shit first before doing.
imsoblurr.

just came baq frem musictec.
hah.
the lame place.
ok.im such a mean pok.
yupp.
had a really mad day today de.
early morning had cramps.
but was ok after pill from bernice.
thankew ahh fer the pill that you gave me.
quite scared to eat it.
soo pink and gigantic.
pls.
i cannot swallow pills ah.
den i ate in the toilet.
whee.
wonder woman nurul managed to swallow it within a gulp of water!
though a lot of water ~~spilled~~.
mass run was yuCks.
the rain just had to come later whats.
ran in the rain.a bit.
sprinted all the way up cause..
~~i wanted to be far far far far away from THUNDER.~~
hah.
now its no point.
hee.
~~THUNDER dun even KNOW LIGHTNING.~~
hah.
BIGG mistake.
i gave lollipop to my 3 lollipoppies!
yays.
hah.
but i still owe all my deariess.
hah.
i ate one up.
sold one to berr.
hah.
sang barney song pass TWOGONE.
heh. tricia goh was inside.
can imagine ahem ahem smiling her way.
anyways midi prac rocked today.
ohshit. i need to do amaths and ~~resubmit~~.
best.
//faints

okayy...
how nice can my mummy get?
ahh. this people down stairs damn noisy.
but i think im noisier.
boo.
okayy.
was woken up early morning.
5.04 by wani.
ahh.
//shit.
i slept through the night.
blahh//
den woke up on tv. watch the last few highlights.
den this pple talk talk. who cares about it.
yupp.
went baq to sleep.
woke up at 9.45.
breakfast-ed butter cookie and nice nice yellow glutinous rice.
hah.
damn farking nice de.
yupp.
den went out.
was like where do you want to go.
ended up taking 167 which was so not our plan.
we just boarded cause my brother hailed it.
ahh.
den plan want to go flash n splash look fer bro's sandals.
in the end. mummy ask where the bus go.
i said to bukit merah behind behind behind the school there.
she say just sit until you get tired of sitting.
ahh.
so nice!!
okayy.went p.s
shop shop there fer like 3++ hours.
whee.
saw para para dance thing.
ohgod.
its so shitified can?
okayy.
how funn.
mummy so nice.
told her i want iPOD.
she say cannot i was like. fine.
den sudd she say. read papers today got the new walkman can store 13000 tunes.
i was like..really meh?
hah. she told me im so lazy. neh read newspapers..since i din noe..she dun wan buy for me!
ahh.
i read the papers the moment i got hold of the new paper.
hah.
okayy.
i want that walkman.
buy for me!
whee.
i love my mummy.

you're my lollipop.
they're my deariess.
it doesnt matter how far i have to go for you.
just tell me something.
dun let it be her in your heart..
take care lollipop.

hey hey.
yays! at last.
after two days.ive gotten this straightened out.
yupp.
anyways its bin long since i'v blogged.
buzy larr.
ahh.
had oral on friday.
hee. "freakayy fried-ayy"
the person called me 4 times to enter the exam room.
hah.
den i went in he said : nama awak nurul kan?
which means. your name is nurul right?
hah. i was like. yes.
hahah.
~~gementar giler~~.
anyways
it was soon over. considering like it was quite easy.
and this word jeda.
wadever.i ~~dunno what it means.~~
now i know.
den.
yesterdayy. had listening compre.
hah!
chicken macs.
not bad ah.
den went to watch syf.
and i tell you.
i was able to spot RASEENA!!!!!
the front left.
hah.
so ~~distinctive~~.
haha.
okayy.
den things happenedd.
so malu man.
but who cares.
walked all the way here [childcare centre]
crying.
and this man was like looking at me.
//paiseyyyy.
but really.
ahh.
~~my heart is beating really really fast.~~
im sorry.

test.