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i waited a ages for maintenance to be over.
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so. booster was mainly talk and learning about anchoring. i think that is nice. yupp that's it.
i feel like im wasting my life. i do nothing but eat, watch tv, play, stone, stare. wahlau. there's much more inportant stuffs to do. but i dont care now.
i was thinking. if everyone becomes corrupted, what will the world be like. i mean globally, socially, bla bla. but obviously, they'll do it under covers. still, i bet it's gonna be rampant. then, there wouldn't be anymore integrity. character, morals and ethics will be flushed down the toilet bowl as simply then. like, by then, nobody in the world would give a heck about anything. they'll just think of themselves. they'll be so material minded and self-centred. that's how people are going to be like, just to live. they'd put down their morals and values just like that to live. then. what happens to the political system? what happens if the president him/herself was corrupted?wouldn't there be any justice or any orderly thing happening? like we've learnt: it will lead to the decline of a country/state.
however, i am not saying that everyone in the world is corrupted.for now, morals and ethics are still considered and being taught in school. it was just an if.
alright. that was a load piece of crap. but i jsut wanted to spout rubbish. and i was reminded of venice thing. so what the hell. haha. anyway. i wanna go watch peterpan! but dammit. i gotta paint the house for hari raya. grr. okay fine. i'll do it and miss my peterpan! grr.
im painting my room some shade of purple and light colour. and i'm gonna be painting stripes somewhere on the walls. haha. im helping my brother do art too! i wanted to help him. heh. i miss drawing rubbish on paper and painting them. haha.
i wanna eat hiphopjellies.
-biarku simpan rasa kecewa
biarlah, asal kau bahagia.
takkan ku menghalangi keinginanmu.
biarku cari jalan sendiri,
biarlah aku yang mengalah
mungkin ini semua kesalahanku menyinta dirimu.
good evening.
amazing race today was fun fun fun! i love i love i love i loved it! (:
yesterday we did some OSCAR (which reminds me of my ex-neighbour's dog. -it's name. HAHA) thing online to find out our beeping career. and guess what i was.
an unknown whatever gamma ray and x-rays RADIATION/RADIOACTIVE THERAPIST.
like...hello? earth? i dont even know what they do and i'll be more prone to some banging cancer! NO. I AINT GONNA RISK IT. NO NO NO.
in addition: neither do i want to be THE RAPIST. NO WAY! i dont rape people. it's too disgusting to do. im sorry therapists around the world. it's just that the only therapy i can do and help others is to make them crazy. YES. (:
rita zahara was a crescentian. how interesting. now that made me think and reflect if i really wanted to be a broadcasting reporter (one like her because it's fun. i like it). and yes i did because you get to travel. that's the next best thing other than to be a food critic. but.. NURUL! BE REALISTIC. WITH YOUR ENGLISH, THE BEST THING YOU CAN DO IS TO CORRECT THE AHPEKS AND AUNTIES AT THE COFFEESHOP. grr.
oh great. now let's rant on thoughts instead of daily life.
dammit. i dont actually feel great about myself and about life right now. like eww. my life is in a fantastic whole mess.
i just wanted to say it's over. it's over for me to play a fool. i must start doing something right each day. not to the left or wrong.
next, i dont feel nice about my results either. i think it's gonna screw up like any other screwdrivers will do to a screw. prelims was not just bad. it was a horrible, ugly, dirty, crappy, rubbish, terrible, bullsh*t thing i've done in my whole entire life.
my english: rubbish lot.
my malay: a broken record. never written such invaluable essay my hwole year this year.
my math: just get lost. i can't make it.
my amath: ohmygoodness la. it's as good as handing up a blank paper.
my bio: wonderful! like real. i dumped my mcq.
my phy-chem: it was the WORST paper in an evolution. it wasn't hard. but damn! i got all mixed up.
my lit: ohgreat. it was the only happy paper i took.
my ss: i can blended them in the blender.
my geog: i fried it chaota-ed.
i seriously can't make it mummie. im so so so sorry. i know you understand. but yeah. i feel guilty. not that i didn't study. it was jsut mixxing me up and churning me. like as if i was in a cement mixer. pointless!
i'd rather be cemented.
you guys can kick me if i get below twenty for this prelim. that's the last thing i was gonna get.
right at the bottom of my 4 rounds around the world list.
there's still some cluttered subjects in my mind. i can't put it in words though. ohwells. never mind. im only using a teeny weeny part of my brain anyway. there's still loads more room.
-sorry i can't eat stingray with you guys. (: think of me while you're eating it. maybe you'd be able to telepath some fish into my brain and tastebuds! (: love you people!
finally, i'd like to say thank you to my ever wonderful mother for being extra understanding for this matter. for now. (: love you too.
ohman. i want to scream.
please?
wahlau eh. today has been such an angst-filled day.
today had been the horribly perfect day!
angry number one:
i waited and waited for a full hour, even more than that i think, for somebody to come.
i felt like a complete idiot la.
sitting there, ALONE, drinking two medium sized drinks, within that time. i wanted to pee okay. but i decided to wait. FOUR FREAKING BUSES CAME AND WENT AND NOT A SINGLE SOUL APPEARED. it was so hot please. and there was NO CALL either. however i decided to be a good friend and wait. by the time it was three o clock in the afternoon, i left. i couldn't be bothered to wait for someone who would never turn up. like hello. even if you can't make it, call man. what's the public phone all around you for?! display?! it's highly irritating alright? i made so many exceptions and sacrificed two hours of my playing time and you guys happily didn't turn up. not fun at all. one day, im gonna do the same to you and let you feel how exciting and interesting it was to keep on looking at cars passing by you. (:
angry number two:
after fetching my brother, we went to buy lunch at macs. at macs, it was a young man serving us. ohmygoodness me. the guy is so effing soft la. like may i help you? ohman. yes you may help me by turning UP your volume. i thought one tiny voiced man was enough in my life. but nooooooooooooooooooo. my darling brother had to do the same. since i was busy checking my mother's ez-link, i told my brother to order first.
man: may i help you?
me: (points to bro)
bro: tempura
man: sorry?
bro: tempura
man: sorry no more tempura. will mcchicken do?
bro: okay.mc chicken will do.
man: sorry?
me: MC CHICKEN. i'd like happy meal cheeseburger with coke and fries thank you.
man: okay. that'll be $6.
me: sorry. mc chicken meal right?
man: you want mc chicken meal?
bro: ya. meal.
man: $9.50
me: wahlau. can you speak LOUDER OR NOT?
i was so freaking pissed la pls. the moment before, my brother so loudly even the man on motorcycle, outside the car can hear i think. then now, voice so soft even the ants cannot hear pls! tskkk. we even had to wait 15 minutes. grr.
angry number three:
i was doing some renaming to my mp3 la. after renaming, i happily delted all of them accidently la! wahlau. now i have to record all over. such a waste of time. stupid me. im great. im so so so great.
those were my angry moments.
my only happy moment:
i ate mochi. how peaceful.
YOU. i dont think i know you anymore. you're gone pls. where are you now? i i dont think you understand me anymore either. it's not fair. what happened? and you even had the cheek to ask me questions that don't belong. you think you're so great. more like i have to ask you those questions. you disappoint me. i think i hate you now.
-lupakanlah saja diriku
bila itu bisa membuatmu
kembali bersinar dan berpijar seperti dulu kala
caci maki saja diriku
bila itu bisa membuatmu
kembali bersianr dan berpijar seperti dulu kala-
yoohoo!!!!!
this is wonderful!
i've completed a heck lot of papers and didn't cry for a single one!
i dont care if i didn't finish it. not now.
whee.
so i went shopping today with rachel, denise, valerie, chenise and maznah [chenise's sister joined us later]. shopped like everywhere and got legs all tired and aching. bleah.and i stepped into town after an evolution. so nice. wonderful! haha. okay what's with me and wonderful. ohwells. went taka to eat. then walked again evrywhere to find pants for CAREER DAY. so i bought it at g2000. shared with valerie. (: $59 for two. because we had to pay for the pants ourselves, we had to save some money for our prom too and bla bla.
so we walk walk. then i saw this group of people la. i dont know who they are but they seem to know me. chenise heard something and they kept on staring and staring la. wahlau. dont stare please: if you want, say HI. THANK YOU. that'll be better manners. (:
then i went to try on yet another daniel yam at tangs again. wore the tube with that ribbon there. (: how fun. and thank goodness i didn't get stuck HAHA. then we went to far east to actually want to do secret mission. -raises eyebrows and grins. but we couldn't find. so we shopped again. valerie bought a pair of bron pants which was nice la for $26.80. i think i was f&a. ohwells. then we waited for that effing man to get rachel's atm deducted la. it took an eternity pls. and i told the guy: thank god and rolled my pretty eyes. HAHA. yupp. then we went home! (:
i got home in ten minutes. by that time denise and valerie weren't even halfway home la. HAHA. that was funny. yupp. and in the bus, there was this big faded red patch on the seat. anyone could have guessed. somebody had a terrible case of red flag la. like eww. i bet she wore jeans or something. HAHA. so sway. okay.
that's it. and i still owe some people presents. (: sorry ah.
and im quite disappointed with some too. ohwells.
yay! everything's over now. except my malay paper. yupp. my first day of shopping with classmates is also over. tmr...mummy, will you come with me? (:
happy happy.
yay! first week over. four more papers to go. grr. happy happy.
okay. i dont know exactly why im here. but im here. after like a million trillion days. (:
the sun is shining ever brightly onto my skin.
birds. is it their natural course to want to hop into houses and shit there? especially when the house offers food. that's fun isn't it. i mean for them.
nurul. am i like the cutest, courteous, nicest, hardworking, initiative, charming, daughter/friend/sister/lady/crescentian in the house?
OHYES. WHY!
im BRILLIANT!
but somebody refuses to accept so. it's just highly irritating to be stared at all the time and "spat" at. they think it's fun. and he thinks it's fun to let the little poor girl, studying her butt off, and at the same tiem being the nicest daughter/sister/friend on earth.
grr. i just dislike him. he thinks he so hot and handsome and worth a MILLION BUCKS.
-coughs.
EXCUSE ME! YOU DONT EVEN COST A CENT!
AND OH puhhleeeeeeese. YOU THINK YOU'RE ***DAMN COOL FROM TOP TO BOTTOM.
I TELL YOU: THE AHPEKS AND AUNTIES COOLER THAN YOU AH! AND YOU: NOT EVEN A MILLIMETER OF YOU HAS "COOL" INSCRIBED ON YOU or DESCRIBES YOU. (:
YOU'RE SO #&*v*%&#&(&^*v&e^%#(&*!
-whatever that is, it doesn't exist. (:
anyway, the debate on cna is quite fun. i think i like it. (:
this is wonderful.
oaky. time out. see you in a week. and we'll go prom dress shopping together! (:
[classmates the first day of shopping]
[mummy second and third day of shopping]
[tot fourth day of shopping]
[classmates fifth day of shopping]
[mates sixth day of shopping]
[myself seventh day of shopping]
ohyes. stingray anyone?
