scream when you have to, to let go

Saturday, April 28, 2007

22:03

GOLD.

happy! :D

on thursday, waited anxiously for results to come back, literally. and we were screaming when we saw mrs koh and mdm phang. THANK YOU TEACHERS for all your support.

thank you dance for giving me one of the best experiences of my life. it had been a journey filled with emotions and i am greatly honoured to have been part of it. thank you cjdance. <3

on friday went vivocity to buy stuff from candy empire and to miss it. ): Haiyah. eventually we just went on a tour. heh. REALLY GOOD TIME HERE, THERE, EVERYWHERE. love.

anyway, i will upload all the photos once the stupid software doesnt hang on me. URGH.

AND MUSE IS <3.
supermassive black hole is getting me hooked bad. i can get all jittery and jumpy and happy and imagine something (AHEM!) ZEXXY in front of me. HEH. (:

J.T somewhat give the same effect but not as bad as MUSE (<333)!

Oh baby dont you know I suffer?
Oh baby can you hear me moan?
You caught me under false pretences
How long before you let me go?

You set my soul alight
You set my soul alight

(You set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive

(You set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the 'supermassive'

I thought I was a fool for no-one
Oh baby I'm a fool for you
You're the queen of the superficial
And how long before you tell the truth

You set my soul alight
You set my soul alight

(You set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive

(You set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the 'supermassive'

Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole

Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive

Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive

(You set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive

(You set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive

Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! (the clazzic scream)
my gooodness, let me faint and die now. -faints.

TILL THEN.
i love love love love you!

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

21:42

SYF: 25 APRIL 2007.
OH THE JOY!

pre
met up at the bench!
dismissed at 8 from schl. so basically we just attended for assembly.
changed into costume immediately and started tying hair, put on contacts, sprayed hair, gelled hair, re-tied hair, foundation, eyeliner, drawing of eyebrows, eyeshadow, bronzer, silver-er!
WHOO! ALL THE MAKEUP.
M.A.C. i swear. its good. putting on was easy. removing it was easy too. i like it.
M.A.C. !
did two runs. one was alright. second was better. and off we went.
took bus ride. and when we came in, all heads turned.
obviously to look at the mohawk on the guys. they were exceptionally hot.
we saw all other schls and their costumes. one hard freaking scary and disturbing make up on them. and some had pretty costumes. some were gold and rj was white and red or sth. cool.
then we touched up, warmed up and we waited for damn long. we were jumping up and down and shaking everywhere to keep ourselves warm.
and when we entered, we saw hwa chong dancing. my goodness. their props are like umbrellas and gangway and boys. and some of their steps were similar.
who cares. WE WERE GONNA DO OUR THING.

the dance
the adrenaline rush when we ran in. -keeping in mind: SHINE THROUGH.
when music plays. -keeping in mind: THIS IS IT.
BREATHE!
off we go. we stretched to our limits and gave feeling. -sending forth the message: WE HAVE COME THUS FAR, NOW SEE US.
i felt the first song. and we made through the walking! WOOHOO!
second song: nicole's part was shiok. seriously.
and we were joyous little fireflies bouncing and dancing. i could extremely feel it. i was giggling with delight! :D
our three groups never looked so perfect before! REALLY.
third song: JUST WHACK IT. NO TURNING BACK BABY.
we all whacked like we have never whacked anyone/anything before. TWEEEEEE.
the feeling was sensational throughout.
I WISH WE COULD ALL BE THERE AGAIN.

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we came out screaming like wild people.
it was only a matter of seconds that it was all done and we did it.

WE DID IT, CJDANCE. :D

off-topic
i tried hard to see you. eg stepping out at 9, hoping.
passed mars. but you had to study. ok. (:
staying a while at 1 at the hall.
but all to no avail.
hoping you'd come. but i know you wouldnt.
and while standing and sitting there feeling all nervous and crippled, i wish you were there.
ohboy.

ICE CREAM TMR.
OUT ON FRIDAY. (:

~~study all the way later.~~

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

22:27

ONE MORE DAY.

and we'll do that ONE chance, ONE shot, ONE ALL.

lets do our best, dance! :D

till then, ive been listening to the song on repeat mode since 830 till now. how many times is that? nvm.

anyway, im here. after syf, im gonna give my best to my studies. really i NEED HELP BIG TIME.

so long. (:

LET'S FEEL.

Sunday, April 22, 2007

23:40

I JUST MADE A NEW DISCOVERY. (:

OKAY NTHG TO DO WITH ANYTHING BUT COLDPLAY! :D

there's actually two versions of "TALK" by coldplay. `MMM.
here goes:

version one. (the one i dont have)

Oh brother I can’t, I can't get through
I've been trying hard to reach you 'cause I don't know what to do
Oh brother I can't believe it's true
I'm so scared about the future and I wanna talk to you
Oh I wanna talk to you

You can take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be?
You can climb a ladder up to the sun
Or a write a song nobody has sung or do
Something that's never been done

Are you lost or incomplete?
Do you feel like a puzzle, you can't find your missing piece?
Tell me how do you feel?
Well I feel like they're talking in a language I don't speak
And they’re talking it to me

So you take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be?
You can climb a ladder up to the sun
Or a write a song nobody has sung or do
Something that's never been done, do
Something that's never been done

So you don't know where you're going and you wanna talk
And you feel like you're going where you've been before
You tell anyone who'll listen but you feel ignored
Nothing's really making any sense at all, let's talk
Let's talk, let's talk, let's talk

version two. (the one i have)

Under the great North star
Try to work out where you are
In the silence of the sea
I don't know where I'll be

In the future, in the past
Going nowhere... much too fast
When I go there, go with me
When I go there, go with me

Cause I don't know where I'm going and I wanna talk
I feel like I'm going where I've been before
And I wanna talk
Take a picture of
Something that you're not sure of
Bring it back to show to me
But I don't know what I see

In the future, find a home
Getting nowhere on your own
Got to find your missing piece

Cause you don't know were you're going and you wanna talk
You feel like you're going where you've been before
Nothing's really making any sense at all
You tell anyone who'll listen but you feel ignored

Let's talk
Let's talk
Do you wanna talk

I'm [unknown]
I'm trying to sing a song
In a language I don't speak

I tried but I can't get through
I'm trying to get to you
But you’re difficult to reach
Won't you talk to me

So you don't know were you're going and you wanna talk
You feel like you're going where you've been before
Let's talk
Let's talk

either one. LET'S TALK. i wanna talk to you! TAHAHAHHA. :D

17:57

ALO?

wow. long time long time.

syf is in three more days. till then i need a lot a lot of feeling.

anyway. life is going good. right? (: twee.
im sure you can testify for that. `mmm.

yknow. tdy, i had a horrid time looking for the ~~police post~~. it was like walking in the sahara desert but with birds flying overhead and cars zooming past and i was like hundred miles away from the police post. ZOMG.

i walked and walked and walked thinking that it was near (just how stupid can i get), and i only got there like after twenty minutes walking. okay not really la. say fifteen. with my BITING SLIPPERS, i walked from ten mile junction to choa chu kang north/south(?) neighbourhood police post. WTF? it was at block 100+ and the numbers ran from three digits to double digits halfway. BENGAP BIN BODOH BLOCKS! and when i reached there, i was perspiring like a mad dog! maybe not so bad. but still! shit, i hate that area. after like what seemed like ages dealing with the police woman cos i had to change address, i was finally done. i gave up walking and took lrt back home. the fifteen minutes of frantically walking and madly perspiring was actually possible without it all with only 5 minutes lrt ride for only 40CENTS! ballz.

to top it all, when i got home, i realised it was all a waste and got scolded instead! all because of the stupid "BLK" word in front. WTF?! the scolding was so uncalled for and we had to make another trip to the same freaking police post just to change it. crackpot old fool. ):

and the same police woman got irritated cos she had to redo it again. EXCUSE ME! it's your job, dont show irritating irritation lah! like im not irritated by the fact that i got scolded and my feet was blistering and and braved the sun and the wind just to come and find your tiny little hideout. HMPFT.

that was one. from the police post, we drove to bbdc. ZOMG. one crazy troublesome thing. i entered the place and since it was gonna rain i had to get it done quick. so i approached the info counter, and asked where to apply for the basic theory test. she asked me so many questions like whether its my first time there, what test would i like to take, auto or manual, private or school candidate, singaporean? OMG. do i look mongolian to you?! FINALLY she told me to go to a computer and fill in some online form before coming back to her and take a queue number. my god. she could have made her job easier and my limited time more fully utilised by just telling me to go to the computer and come back here to get the queue number. that would take only 5 seconds to say! on the computer screen, it had all the questions she asked. OH MY SUNDAE!

i thought when i was through with the queue number and seeing the woman, i was done! BUT GUESS WHAT! the queue number would just entitle me to getting a sticker with my name pasted on a green card. that's it. i had to go to another station to deposit money in to some account where they deduct money from whenever i apply for a test or sth. ZOMG. after depositing, i had to move over to ANOTHER station to book my test date. HOLY. THAT'S LIKE 6 STATIONS WITHIN THE PLACE. to my dismay, i couldnt even book a test date cos the earliest available test dates falls during mid years. GRR. just because almost everything in singapore is self explanatory, what is the point if everything is made difficult. tsk tsk tsk.

by the way, i look perfectly singaporean.

ohya! this friday is the last day of the month! (: YAY. delightfully looking forward to it.

p/s. hope your dad is fine. (:

LOVE!

Saturday, April 14, 2007

21:15

it's been like what, two weeks?

that shows how caught up i am with everything.
it's like a jam in my life. moving but not moving.
where ah where ah.
syf is drawing near (how can it draw?!-k-) it's only ten days away.
that phlegm!

ive basically have no time for everything else. by the time i reach home, it'd be 8 plus.
i eat bathe, 9 plus. take out some homework start to do and fall asleep at the most 45 minutes later. how to live?! BREATHE LAH BODOH!

and i miss my mum. though i see her like everyday. but i dont even get to slack and sit with her anymore. i think i talk more to teachers than my mum. that sucks. i dont even know how she's doing. i think she's lonely. ): mummies shouldnt be lonely. i will not do homework and spend time with her soon!

dearest, dearest, dearest. ten more days and im through with it all. lets be patient and we'll survive it. of course we'd survive la. but really it's a matter of hanging on!

then, i'll have more time to concentrate. we shant slack anymore, and though we'd have no life from today onwards and till a's are over, we can always relax and go slow. im sure things wont go so bad and awry. (:

but guess what i did tdy! ive never been so hard working or being able to do work myself for that long since like one and a half months ago.
i woke up at 630 to send my parents off, then i studied from 715 till 1130. i completed maths tutorial up till probability. but i dont understand a shit about probability. esp the "given that" rubbish. okay! everyone should be proud of me! (: cos i actually studied. (:
OH AND I FINALLY KNOW WHAT IS ELECTRON DONATING. (:
AND SOMEBODY ASKED ME THIS: eh how to draw x=1 ah?

HAHAH. joke of the week.

you sit there in your heartache,
waiting on some beautiful boy
to mend you of your old ways;
now watch it, here he comes.
he doesnt look a thing like jesus
but he talks like a gentleman;
like you imagined when you were young.

Sunday, April 01, 2007

17:04

im back from yesterday.

it was eventful.
i couldnt decide what to wear and finally i just yanked out a purple top and wore it out.
as when i wanted to leave, it rained cats and dogs. i had no choice but to leave otherwise i'd be late.
all that getting wet was worthwhile.
first glimpse was no mat! woOhoo. nice pants, i want.
took bus to bugis and walked the way to golden landmark. took photos too. (:
bought split sole canvas ballet shoes for $9.50 and left for bugis street. (:
searched for his bag and his bag. saw his bag and his bag. bought his bag. intending to buy his bag.
"i dont like. it's like two bags humping each other"
HAHA. then met oldtime friend. thank you!
and ate bk and left for school. (:
i think we're cool.
watched the concert. some stupid thing i said at interval ruined next half of performance. though helter skelter was good!

bus stop was empty. the feeling i get at the empty bus stop was indescribable.
really.

thank you for the time thank you for everything -- ONE!

<3