scream when you have to, to let go

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

23:38

hey.

how are you all feeling this fine tuesday night? im feeling really thirsty.

anyway. there are a few reasons as to why i havent blogged for a week. many things happened which i dont wish to talk about cos they only form bad memories and it's better if i just leave it at that and forget about it. but there are of course some things worth remembering.

where do i start.

I L-O-V-E CHILLING.
and i'm going to chill a lot in this two weeks.
i bet you on that.
so who's up for some chilling with me? we can try making our own cocktails and spaghetti? MMMMM.

ive been spending a lot of my days with farah lately! :D like i see her almost every alternate day and i appreciate her company, especially during the dumb shit medical checkup at UHWC which took me about 4 hours to complete. ZOMG. without her there, i think - i dont think- I'M DAMN SURE i'll be bored to death or just glue myself to my phone trying to call people who'd entertain me. HAHA!
ahh and on the first alterate day she came, we cooked SPAGHETTI! :D it was damn good for people like us! :D ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. do you want to try our spaghetti? XD and we camwhored. something i only do with these close girls.
i went to watch firework with her too on saturday! IT WAS SO PRETTY! i want to catch the rest too! someone else come with me? FAZZZZZZ has that ntums camp to go. ):

kiayi is here with his wife and staying at my place for......i really dont know how long. and for every night he's been here, there has been visiotrs non-stop. it's like hari raya. but i just lock myself up in this room and ignore all else. im such a good daughter. (what say you?)

I'VE BEEN SPENDING A HECK LOT AND I FEEL DAMN GUILTY. I SHOULD STOP SPENDING MONEY LIKE WATER AS THOUGH I PRINT WADS OF MONEY. DAMN.

i really didnt want to use the credit so much but like all the stuff i bought - which i cant remember what - requires a suitcase of money, like my one yr supply of contacts which cost my dad $364 and 4 tank tops from topshop which cost my dad another $60. woah. and i am sure i bought more stuff. and i even need more jeans/pants cos i gained weight - FORK AND SPOON! GAH! - and there's still the laptop i need. those are going to cost a lot. damn. im biting my nails waiting for the credit card bill to come. i have never spent so much before and i have never eaten like an elephant before. my appetite is growing bigger and bigger by the mealtime. it's no wonder im gaining weight.

i really need to get to school fast so i can immerse myself in education and get stressed about not having done my homework or stress about shit that i dont understand and think: holy. am i stupid or what. SOMEONE EXPLAIN TO ME! that kind of stuff. then i can divert my attention to those and forget about food and stop gorging and craving for stuff like daily-fix-of-chocolate. talking about daily-fix-of-chocolate: that requires money too and more calories (not that i count them). ):

siala, teriyaki chicken stew la. ):

oh faz told me that singaporeean girls are part of the TOP 10 SEXIEST/HOTTEST GIRLS IN THE WORLD. what the bangla?!