scream when you have to, to let go

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

00:59

heyheyhey! (tune: the milk song of some advertisement shit) or was it "ho ho ho"?

there's so many things to say and i think it's gonna be long post.
here goes.

ONE.
my mum's birthday! :D 14 july.
she's way way cool to be so young and im only 19. :D it was mostly like any other day but with a lot more love in the house :D (somehow i could tell) i cooked with her and helped clean the stove, something which i only do when she's sick/tied up with many things/birthday. so basically cleaning stove is like a special act that deserves to be applauded. it was a dirty, oily stove. so yea. then there was some confusion to her birthday cake thing but eventually it all went well. ice cream! :D at swensens. like always. but eating at swensens wasnt actually special, but it's special today cos it's a monday. we dont eat swensens on mondays. weekends only. THE BEST PART: WE SCREAMED OUT HAPPY BIRTHDAY SONG IN THE LIFT TWICE, once on the way, once on the way home. it was deafening. i swear my ear drums could split. but it was so funnyyy. she had a memorable expression. HAHA.

declaration: I LOVE YOU, IBU! :D god bless you. (and all the other prayers to god that i've made.)

TWO.
no school today. 15 july.
ahh. i woke at up 6.37am, thinking, oh no, im not going to school. ): feeling really upset about that, that i decided to close my eyes and release that morning blues and feel happy about it, but it put me back to sleep which made me miss my prayer. damn. at every period which i have lesson, i wonder what they were doing. but it made me feel happy to know they are in undeniably better hands compared to me. they're gonna improve, i hope. shite, can you just imagine how horrible i was a MALAY teacher. ~~oh man, dont even bother, you'll vomit blood.~~
but im so missing them. as was my previous post. but i'll get over it.
nooks, i can still picture your face. but it'll be blurry in no time, no doubt.

like the song, refer below.

THREE.
oh no, i havent called faz for two days though i promised her i'd call like a few hours later, but i'm so caught up ): i feel bad about that. like i was cooking, then i went for ice cream dinner afterwhich i forgot to call her back until i was bathing but it's already so late. i believe faz should get more sleep this period, ok? i'll call her tmr. I PROMISE. and this one wont be broken.

FOUR.
CAR-nival. 13 july.
it was packed at expo hall 4. but i wonder just how people can buy a car immediately without testdriving it. and the proton cars are so mechanical (keras) that it doesnt suit me. so please dad, i dont want the proton. after being so used sitting in cars that are big and spacious like merc, bm and though-quite-small jag, and the hyundai sonata, sitting in small hatchbacks and smaller cars made me have a little phobia of enclosed spaces, especially in cars. i dont know, sitting at the driver's seat is fine, but i worry the passengers wont be comfortable enough to sit more that one hour inside. but in any case, having a small car is perfect for me and my mum. ((:
dad, it doesnt matter what second car you get, it's your money anyway and it's all for the mode of transportation. i'm already a lucky girl to have all this luxuries. thanks be to god for bestowing us with such rezeki.

FIVE.
the guy who asked for my number in the library, i'm sorry it's just not your day and please, if you dont have any place better to ask for girls' numbers, do it like more subtle-ly (if you're asking in the lib) or just go get someplace else. NOT THE LIBRARY. how uncool is that.
that experience was totally disgusting. well i cant deny, im superficial to a small extent - ok certain extent- he just wasnt my type. like please. i dont look freaking 24 who's desperate and looking for a boyfriend sitting at some corner of the library. and you guys should have seen his reaction when he asked:

him: you kat sini buat apa? (what are you doing here?)
me: tengah tunggu mak. (waiting for my mum)
him: MAK?! ALAMAK! k lincah lincah. your number ahh... (MUM!? ALAMAK! k quick quick. your number ahh)

he terperanjat beruk sia. you should have seen his face. it was so funny, i was trying really hard to surpress my laughter. LOL. but just go away and dont harass me.

SIX.
miss universe 2008 is miss venezuela. pity. i prefer miss columbia. she's so gorgeous and sweet and i LOVE her evening wear PLUS she has GREAT ABS. -jaw drops. and i dislike very much miss spain. she's like so irritating and she was trying to exude this: im-so-damn-hot-you-just-have-to-pick-me-otherwise-i'll-get-stuck-in-fhm-international-magazine face. UGH.

SEVEN.
i decided not to blow dry my hair today after shower. and woofoo, nice WAVY, soft hair babes. i thank god for my lovely hair.

i think that's all for now that i can remember.

OH YEA. farah hidayati! if you're reading this, this thurs witch yoo hee??? :D :D looking forward!

till then. i love you guys. all of you in my present life.

blurry - puddle of mudd.

Everything’s so blurry, and everyone’s so fake
And everybody’s empty, and everything is so messed up
Preoccupied without you, I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you, I stumbled and I crawl
you could be my someone you could be my scene
You know that I’ll protect you from all of the obscene
I wonder what you’re doing Imagine where you are
There’s oceans in between us, and that’s not very far

Can you take it all away Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face, This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face

Everyone is changing, there’s no one left that’s real
So make up your own ending, and let me know just how you feel
Cause I am lost with out you, I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you, I stumbled and I crawl
you could be my someone you could be my scene
You know that I will save you from all of the unclean
I wonder what you’re doin I wonder where you are
There’s oceans in between us but that’s not very far